I find that i have been crying a lot lately, mostly it's when i look at my self in the mirror. what i see is pale skin and hollowed out eyes that say that I feel like tearing my hair out till there is nothing left.
Mostly i feel like this cause i think that i love my best friend. but i would never get between his girlfriend and him. I feel like he's just using me and tolerating me now, out of obligation. because "You are the most reliable person that i have ever know and I and so lucky to have you in my life, your always there when i need you" kinda translates to I won't talk to you for several weeks at a time but only when the need arises o